Friday, January 8, 2010

Resolutions, pt. 1

I sort of hate that we only resolve to do things on January 1st, but I also like the fact that a new year can bring fresh new ideas.

Deborah and I talked about our goals for the following year and I tried to keep it from sounding like a high school project. See, I had envisioned this great time where we sat and thought and wrote out our goals and then shared them together, maybe over a cup of earl gray tea, but Deborah has serious aversions to these types of things thanks to years of "Kingdom Education" aka Baptist Christian High School. Apparently, they were big on discussing goals and resolutions...

So, I adapted, and the reality was much nicer than my 'assignment'. A simple conversation while waiting for our order at Sonic.

Our last order from Sonic (sadly).

So, My biggest ( a pun on many levels, really) resolution is to lose 30lbs before the wedding.

I know I am supposed to love my plus-sized self, and that my body is a wonderland and I am gorgeous and all of that crap. But to be honest, I don't love myself at my current weight and I often look in the mirror and say "what happened?", and I don't want to be saying that at my wedding. More so, I don't want to say "wow, our photographer did a good job making me look good!" I just want to look good. No camera tricks... I just want to look smokin' hot, and feel smokin' hot too.

To me, 30lbs seems like a reasonable goal in 11 months. It means no more fast food (my weakness), and watching what I actually eat. I did a good job this summer after the diabetes scare, but then I got lazy. I always get lazy.

I can't be lazy anymore!!!

So, to hold myself more accountable, I've joined a Biggest Loser sort of group at my work, and whoever loses the largest % of body fat by march wins 200 bucks. Seems like nice extra motivation to me!

Here's hoping I'm not too hungry all the time.... hungry + wedding planning = terrible.

1 comment:

julie said...

"I know I am supposed to love my plus-sized self, and that my body is a wonderland and I am gorgeous and all of that crap. But to be honest, I don't love myself at my current weight and I often look in the mirror and say "what happened?", and I don't want to be saying that at my wedding."

Oh my gosh, me too. Exactly this! My wedding is in July and I want to try to drop 15-20 pounds. I feel silly trying to "diet for my wedding" but I'm really just not at a size I'm comfortable at - in my everyday clothes and def not in a strapless dress! Good luck to you!!